Sometimes i wonder what kind of lives we are living. What is the purpose of our lives? What are we doing everyday slogging it out...aiming for the next promotion, next raise, next bonus, job insecurities, trying to meet the expectation of a severely competitive world...parents expecting their kids to join the best of Business Schools, land the best jobs...best best best...
For some of us our life ends up being work and work engulfs our life...do we ever take a breath - stop-and figure out what we actually want in our lives or are we just living our lives based on benchmarks made by others...but then we do enjoy the high of being successful..that posh apartment, the latest car to hit the market, that cannon digi-cam, toshiba laptop, nokia mobile phone, the latest fashion...to tell the truth i will be lying if i say that all these things dont matter because they do...and thats the dilemma of my life...i dont want to end up in this vicious cycle but hey i enjoy it!
I wonder if it was easier for our previous generation. Easier because they were more settled in life, they knew what was expected of them. They were not in a mad rush. Grow up, get married, have kids-complete the family, take care of parents when they are old, have people to fall back on when you hit the rought patch...
I am amazed at how secure my mother is. She has been a homemaker all her life, is a fabulous woman, has immense confidence in herself, is far-sighted - in fact some of the best financial decisions in the family were taken by my mother!
I have been a career woman, but why is it that i still don't feel settled...why is this constant urge to reach out to something better, new, why is it that i get the jitters when i'm not working or not dreaming and i have seen women who are so content with whatever life offers them! why cant i just chill out and not worry?!!...
Does it mean i will never be happy?!! i hope not! Its like the feelings of insecurity and uncertainity creeping through me, clawing its tentacles inside...clutching at my heart! ahh there i go again...i'm in a bad mood! or just getting old or well i can blame it on PMS!
For some of us our life ends up being work and work engulfs our life...do we ever take a breath - stop-and figure out what we actually want in our lives or are we just living our lives based on benchmarks made by others...but then we do enjoy the high of being successful..that posh apartment, the latest car to hit the market, that cannon digi-cam, toshiba laptop, nokia mobile phone, the latest fashion...to tell the truth i will be lying if i say that all these things dont matter because they do...and thats the dilemma of my life...i dont want to end up in this vicious cycle but hey i enjoy it!
I wonder if it was easier for our previous generation. Easier because they were more settled in life, they knew what was expected of them. They were not in a mad rush. Grow up, get married, have kids-complete the family, take care of parents when they are old, have people to fall back on when you hit the rought patch...
I am amazed at how secure my mother is. She has been a homemaker all her life, is a fabulous woman, has immense confidence in herself, is far-sighted - in fact some of the best financial decisions in the family were taken by my mother!
I have been a career woman, but why is it that i still don't feel settled...why is this constant urge to reach out to something better, new, why is it that i get the jitters when i'm not working or not dreaming and i have seen women who are so content with whatever life offers them! why cant i just chill out and not worry?!!...
Does it mean i will never be happy?!! i hope not! Its like the feelings of insecurity and uncertainity creeping through me, clawing its tentacles inside...clutching at my heart! ahh there i go again...i'm in a bad mood! or just getting old or well i can blame it on PMS!
